LAST MINUTES.whee~~

I cant count how many times i did last minutes work alr...everytime i told myself not to do last minutes work...at last....it happens again n again...it's really make me frustrated in my life...i m starting lost my aim n ambition in my life....im doubted~~

Today..tml will be my exam alr..i stil doin the same things.last minutes.i started study at ten smtg..but i juz can get 20% of it only.how could i wish to pass my test??i scare afraid.....i dont wan to fail my subject...i dont know how to say alr..hard to describe my feelings now....y i couldnt change??i wondering..........

My frens all changed to hardworking n always do their tutorial.bt me...slacking..procrastinating...wat i m doin...sometimes...i really hate myself...y i couldnt prepare earlier....i started fed up give up......victory n success is goin far n far ways from me..when can i get them??my mind full of suspicious.....

How?wat?when i shud start to change myself??i need to succeed my ambition..haih~~~in a darkness .whee~~stree up in a midnite....